A List of Thoughts

     So I'm feeling pretty thoughtful today and I have other things that I should be doing at the moment. Naturally, that is why I'm blogging. These thoughts will most likely be completely unrelated, definitely in no particular order and hopefully thought provoking, but more likely just confusing.

1) Nobody is perfect, therefore nobody can make anything perfect, but it is the imperfections that are usually the most beautiful.

2) What should we believe in? In God? Human knowledge? Material items? Ourself? Others? The list could go on forever, but honestly I think the most important thing is that you believe in something even if in the end you chose wrong.

3) If you have to ask youself "Does this really matter in the big picture of things?" chances are the answer is no.

4) I honestly wouldn't be surprised if one day I just exploded from all the things I keep tucked inside myself.

5) Attractiveness is a matter of opinion, everyone's idea of it is a bit different. So screw modern society and just like yourself for who you are.
6) It's amazing how many times I find myself cussing people out in my head, it makes me thankful for the ability to censor what comes out of my mouth.

7) It's amazing how many times I find myself agreeing to something I don't want, it makes me spiteful of the ability to censor what comes out of my mouth.

8) My current life feels way to cluttered with useless material items. Sometimes I just want to throw it all out my window and not have to think about it.

9) It would be a lie if I said I've never thought about running away before, I think it would be wonderful to just head out on the road and go explore the world. Sadly I don't think I'll ever do it, and it will just end up on my steadily growing list of regrets.

10) I wonder what would happen if I started to get bad marks in all my classes. Would people be really surprised or would they not even care?

11) There's a very thin line between reality and illusion, you could cross it one day without even knowing.

12) Time, money, and power. The three main things that rule our lives and crush our dreams.

13) I think one of the most precious things in the world is child-like innocence and imagination, yet everyday we find new ways to beat it out of our kids.

14) Laughter can't help with everything, but it can help with most things.

15) It's hard to be true to yourself when you don't know who you are.

16) Music soothes the soul.

     And yeah, that seems to be it. Hopefully I'll write again soon, but who knows....

Happy Birthday!

This just goes out to my best friend in the world, D for her 17th birthday!!! I hope you had a good year and that this following one will be just as good or way, way better. : )

I Hate Mondays

     I'll just come out and say it right now, this is a rant, leave if you wish, but I need to get this all out.
     I have had a horrible day today and that just reinforces that old cliche that Mondays are a drag and nobody likes them. I was so tired this morning I didn't want to get up at all and I ended up sleeping in too late so I couldn't have my shower, now I have to take one this evening instead. Granted this next one was my fault for being lazy earlier, but I still want to put it out there. I didn't have my usual good clothes to wear because I forgot to do laundry this weekend so this morning I just threw on whatever I could find that was still clean.
     At school we had to do reading out loud in my parenting class (I hate reading out loud or doing anything infront of other people for that matter). My math class is being a bitch, we keep getting more and more work everyday so you can't relax at all or you'll fall behind. Then at lunch we had a yearbook committee meeting in which the teacher in charge spazzed out at us because the deadline is coming up soon and we're not done the required amount of pages yet. It's not our fault that there's only 3 fucking people on the committee, give us a break will you?
     For third period I had to be in the library so I could use the computer because the school board is technologically challenged so they haven't given us wireless internet yet. Anyways some stupid grade 9 or 10 class was in the library that period and they wouldn't shut up the entire time! I mean, hello, this is a library! The only thing that got me through the whole ordeal was my ipod. Thank god for ipods. Fourth period wasn't bad, we just had to watch a stupid safety video and write some notes.
     So here I am now sitting at home writing this. I just finished eating a rather large brownie, don't judge, I like chocolate and it makes me feel better when I'm in a nastier sort of mood like I am now. I'm not looking tonight or tomorrow, I have a very long to-do list and to top it off tomorrow I have to sell candy-o-grams at school and help out with the elementary school snack program (probably alone because the stupid adult I'm supposed to be working with never shows up so I usually spend twice the amount of time doing it then what it normally takes when you have a partner).
     So yeah, not one of the best days in my life... maybe my crabbiness has something to do with Valentine's Day. I kind of doubt it though because for the most part I don't mind the holiday, I think it's cute and romantic. A better guess would probably be that I just need more sleep, I hate it when I miss sleep. Hopefully the next time I post I'll be in a better mood.

Update

     Well exams for first semester are finally over, thank god. Second semester starts tomorrow because they only gave us one day off to relax. It shouldn't be all that bad though, my classes are not bad: parenting, math, introduction to anthropology, psychology, and sociology, and biology. I'm pretty psyched for my third period class because it's an independant learning course that I otherwise wouldn't have been able to get at my high school. I didn't really want to take parenting, but there was nothing else available for first period that I wanted so I thought it would just be an easy credit. My mom is the teacher for biology so I'm not sure how that will go, I've never been taught by her so far. It'll probably be fine.
     Anyways, I don't think I have anything else to say for now. Bye!

Listening to: Collect Call -Metric
Currently reading: The Secret of Dragonhome by John Peel (for the 4th time)

I Can Dream

     Okay, so it's nothing official yet, seeing as I only found out about it a couple days ago, but I may have found the adventure I've been looking for. My mom is the guidance counsellor at my high school so she gets a lot of brochures and things promoting different schools or activities students can go to. Recently she got one about volunteering internationally during the summer. It's called Projects Abroad and I recommend checking out the site. There are a wide variety of things you could get into such as child care, community building, medical studies, archeology, journalism and my favourite: animal conservation! I looked through all the options and right now I'm deciding between going to Mexico for 2 weeks to help turtles hatch and make it into the sea, all the while getting daily spanish lessons or going for 2 weeks in Thailand to go diving and help with marine conservation. Both seem really really fun and exciting. I told my parents I wanted to go so they're considering it. It is quite a bit of money so I'll definitely have to chip in, but I think it would be worth it. I really want to do this, not just to go see an awesome new country, but to help out the animals as well. If you're interesting in helping out they're always looking for more volunteers and you can go any time you want, you just have to plan the date and location!

Adios amigos!

P.S. I've been having a really awesome day, so I decided to pass it along: DFTBA!!!

Guess Who's Back

     So, haven't been on here in a while.... my apologies. I'd like to say I have some excuse for my disappearance, but other than me being lazy I have nothing. I don't really have all that much to talk about. Exams are coming up and I have 4 fairly difficult classes to study for so that'll keep me busy for most of next week.
     I think I've developed a new addiction to horror/thriller movies because over the past 3 months I've watched.... a lot. I'm not quite sure where this came from, most of the time I hate horror movies because they scare me and gross me out. Maybe I desensitized myself to them... or something.
     On a completely different note the weather here has been pretty freezing cold. Theres at least a couple feet of snow on the ground and temperatures around -30 degrees celcius or colder. I like it mostly because it means my parents can't complain to me about not being outside. And I sounded like such a hermit there didn't I. Well, there really isn't all that much to do where I live anyways so I guess it wasn't extremely bad, from my perspective anyway.
     But anywho I have studying and stuff to do so hopefully I'll be back soon!

Fangirl Moment!

    
     So if you haven't already heard (I don't know how you wouldn't, probably have to live under a rock or something) the new Harry Potter movie is coming out this weekend, Friday the 19th to be exact. It's the first part of the final book and I've been super excited for it to come out since like... like after I saw the one before it. Here's a trailer for the movie if you haven't seen one yet.

     Anyways, about my title. Well I found out I'll be in the city for Friday and D and I managed to buy some tickets online for the show. I have no doubt this is going to be flippin awesome!!! I am so excited I can barely wait for Friday to get here already so we can go!

     My all time favourite character from the books/movies is Ron Weasley. He's just so funny and awkward and... well to put it bluntly, he's hot. I plan on soaking up enough of his amazingness to last me until July when the second part will be coming out. Other characters worth mentioning: Dobby, Fred and George, Luna, Neville, Hagrid, Hedwig, Professor Mcgonagall, Tonks, and Remus. There are more, but I don't want to list them forever.

     Only thing about this is I'll probably end up crying in the theatre again (yes again, Up and Dear John were really sad movies!) because I cried while reading the books, and I get really into movies emotionally. *note to self: bring tissues* Also it's probably gonna be super packed, it is after all the opening day and it's the weekend, so I'll definitely have to get to the auditorium like 30 minutes early, maybe more.

Hope everyone has good weekends!